>>71329521No, Anon. You don't deserve that.
Any soul can be disheartened after a long time. It's natural for you to have fallen down a little bit.
But it's time to pick yourself back up again. Don't let despair cloud your judgement. Fear will never win out against hope.
Always have hope. We'll be right here waiting for you to return to the fold.
We're all gonna make it.