>>51399549My grandfather got pneumonia one winter and he lived with it for a couple weeks before it finally beat him and that entire period was just pure, unbroken anxiety. It was one of the worst periods of time in my life.
This isn't as extreme as that, but I definitely feel some of that anxiety this uncertainty is causing. Fuck. even if this ends in a graduation announcement I'll still be relieved because at least it's fucking something. I can deal with the sadness it brings and eventually move on, but right now all I can do is just fucking wait and wonder.