>>22676090It's not like I have these thoughts constantly just that when they do come in they're very vivid and often last at least a few minutes at a time. It's extremely memorable cause they're like waking nightmares, but beyond that they do not interfere with my day to day life.
If we were just going by any invasive thought the much more prevalent one that actually does affect my day to day life happens whenever I see nice girl and I imagine her pregnant and married if they're with a guy I imagine what their children would look like if they're alone I pick a random good looking dude on the street and ship them. Sometimes I go to the mall to people watch and fantasize about the domestic lives of couples that might not even exist when i see them. If I see two people who look like they'd be a cute couple sometimes I imagine what their outfits would be like on their wedding day based on whatever they're wearing. I have a few sketches I burned of Pink Cat's wedding dress based on her current outfit but I get embarrassed looking at them so I keep remaking it.
>>22676247Never smoked, never drank, never took any pills except vitamin gummies.