>>17375354I have been isolating myself socially for years and feel like my mind can't keep up with it anymore. The crave for copium has gone through the roof over the course of last year and made me realize how much I crave social interaction with people I can hang out with, aren't super obnoxious and are chill with the things I'm into. But considering I'm now a wagecuck and entering the age where people start to settle and create families, I don't see this happening anytime soon. I've missed the last train and now all I can hope is becoming a chuuba myself and create a community of people who like what I do.
At the same time I also feel how the loneliness has been messing with my head and my sexual fantasies too. I unironically crave dick like crazy now and fantasize about getting railed real good some anon while being dressed up as their oshi, to forget this emptiness just for a night, feel closeness, warmth, desire and comfort. At this rate it's just a matter of time until I toss myself into the crowd for real on some event like a convention or carnival to find someone who can fulfil the duty for me...