>>34660800No one harbors any animosity towards you, even now. You know she's too kind and empathetic for that, I think you know me enough to guess I'm pretty much unfazed by this, and our common friend I think a little column A, a little column B.
You just really need to take control of your mental health, you can't control most things in life, and fixing your mental health might be one of those things, but how you react to it is one of the few things you can control. You know that things aren't peachy over here, but pretty much only you know that even to the limited extent that you do, and that's on purpose. You think that there's no one that you can relate to? There's so many people that you could relate to, but they keep it under wraps and don't act in ways that will let you see the hell they're going through. There's so many people you can fit in with, you just need to learn to do the same. I think I've told you that I've accepted that same fate, but I'm certainly not going to work towards making it reality, and I'm going to do the best I can with what I've got.
It doesn't matter if you had any nefarious purposes, that's when you lashed out, you need to stop doing that. We both know you have what it takes to fit in, more so that I do, you just need to resolve whatever it is that's making you act this way. You need to really get professional help with that. I don't know if you're embarrassed to really talk about it with them or what, because I did notice you weren't doing it, but shit like this is routine for them.
No one knows what the future holds, maybe you're right, and even then you should go out having done your best, but chances are that you're wrong, you just need to stop getting in your own way.
