>>19644841>>19644859>>19644888You see, I have very specific neuron connection which triggers from time to time during streams. It happens when I watch Selen, Pomu or someone else being cool and amazing and then it fires. "You will never have something and someone like this in your life". The realization hits me like truck, as well as guilt because Im not bad looking or fat or
too stupid, so its all on me and things I could control. I just don't meet other people so I doin't have any chances to meet anyone.
>>19644947While I appreciate your concern, I do not think that the people in general care about the people they do not know. They might feel sad over someone's loss they heard about, angry over injustice or something like this, but it is not personal. Its "Im sorry that it happened" rather than "Im sorry you have to deal with it, I want to help you feel better". Its just how people are.