>>3102594>I don't think she sees other people's constructions as literally inferior, especially because, while Babel is a fucking monumental building, it's simplistic by nature. As Haachama herself said on the tetris stream, it's a repetitive task that she enjoys doing, because the way it is built is indeed very simple and repetitive.I agree with this, its simple and repetitive.
maybe I can rephrase that its not so much that she looks at others in an inferior way but that she feels bad she does things more easily, or she gets things more easily. she feels guilty whenever she gets/does something better than others because she thinks she doesnt deserve it was what I was going for.
the part about her being suisei level in tetris is not the point in my post too, I was trying to say she likes to do things which are challenging to her so her "progress" as a vtuber will be similar to her genmates or in hololive. I think this is where the repetitive part comes in, grinding takes more time for little progress but also little skill so she prefers that.
she likes this I'm not arguing for that. the compllication comes when her simple repetitive tasks start to overshadow others because those simple repetitive tasks shouldnt overshadow better works by other girls in hololive right? this is where the imposter syndrome kicks in and self-sabotage begins where she gets into the mental state of "I dont deserve this much recognition for this simple repetitive task"
hence, she plays tetris because even though its a simple repetitive task, you will not get results quickly like MC. but, she got really good at it a year ago and stopped playing it. she only recently took it up again because she "sucks" at it. yesterday she came close to a win twice and got 2nd.
getting 2nd twice in that multi-player tetris she plays is not an easy thing. so if im right, she can feel herself getting better at it now so next week, she will not play tetris or MC and will restart her "lore".
asmr, lore for 2 days, a collab, utawaku, a couple membership streams - this will be her next schedule because she's out of challening options which are simple and repetitive.
either way, we all want her to be better. we're just going about it in different ways, kek
