>>63942173>But holy fuck man the fact an anime girl streamer is the reason is the reason I decided to get after it is so fucking cringe and really funny at the same time.That's not really, truly, cringe at all.
You found a motivator, that motivator enabled you to unfuck things in your life and achieve betterment. Everything you wrote here is entirely, painfully, human. Something completely normal and expectable. What you've done is something to be proud of, rather than ashamed.
I'm glad for you. Keep it up, aim for the fucking skies.