>>34863041I'm still hopeful something will change. Kinda.
Even if it doesn't, I know she won't ever be truly gone. If there's one thing this bitch of a universe can't take from me, it's my own thoughts and memories of her. As long as I keep holding her in my heart and thinking of her, she'll always be with me in spirit. Her presence up in my mind will keep me going throughout everything.
I'm really really REALLY going to miss properly talking to her though. I don't think I'll ever stop missing it. Having her back for just a day made me happier than I have been in months and months, but now she's gone again and I'm back to fighting back tears just like before. It's cruel, and it hurts. If I could just tell her I loved her one more time...
But, again, I'll stay strong. Focusing only on the sadness of this whole ordeal will only sink you deeper and deeper into depression. The only way you can continue is to move on. Remember her, keep loving her, but accept the loss and focus on the good side. It's still going to hurt immensely, but it's the best you can do and it's what she'd have wanted you to do.
No matter what, though, I'll always love her.
