>>70245100this....I wanted to fix stuff up with them and they got angry at me instead, all I wanted to do was feel fine around them again, I'm such a fucking idiot, I just want to go back in time to last year and not piss them off
>>70245444for me I shouldn't have tried to apologize, if it was clearly a problem that couldn't be fixed, all I had to do was unfollow and leave their server, but I wanted to stay around....I let myself drown in such a toxic place
>>70244951I take myself seriously because I lost more than just this one chuuba, they told so many others about me, and that word spread to others who knew me and turned on me immediately and refused to speak to me ever again.
I hate myself so much. If I wasn't a coward I'd be a pile of ashes a long time ago. Not just because of what happened but other stuff too...I don't deserve to have friends, or anyone to play games or watch stuff with. I'm just a defective piece of shit without any talent who sees what others are doing and wish they could have done all that years ago. It's too late for me, I deserve to be dead but I'll have to wait a very long time before I get that wish.
