>>5211608I dunno where it started...
I think something about little girls faces, soft skin, clear eyes, the innocence of character that is amusing cute and cherishable.
I think im kinda attracted to dumb but sweet girls in general. Whenever a kid shows smarts, or awareness, I notice the attraction immediately turns off, because I sense they are aware I am preying on their innocence.
I'm also a big guys, so most girls are small to me. I think a small soft cutie is pretty erotic.
also their expressions, their voices and breath, its all so warm and alive. older women arent soft, or as expressive, or innocent.
I think it might also be a personality defect. Ive never enjoyed scheming people who think too much, which is how Ive been raised by my mother and father. Ive always found it useless.
I dunno if it was anime, but Ive always enjoyed the innocence and obliviousness of super nice and loving characters. And I hate being this ugly scheming prick who is never trusted. perhaps the idea of a innocent litte girl is really attractive, especially one who isnt repulsed immediately by me.
I dunno. But theres a desire of the child I feel. To be with them, to start life again at their level, to be making love with a girl in that stage.