>>48380185I get the lonely part, but you shouldnt call yourself pathetic and useless. No one is truly useless, you just have to find out what you want to do with your life.
You shouldnt call yourself pathetic either thats just beating yourself down for no reason. Dont compare yourself to others and just find out what makes (You) happy and go with it.
Dont just accept that things are gonna stay like that your whole life, thats just giving up without even trying and believe me know from my own expirience thats easier said then done.
I dont know what else to add and these will might just be worthless words to you, but things cant improve if you give up trying and again i know exactly that its not easy. I struggle with that myself daily, the most important part is to keep trying, thats all you can really do and if you fall back down, you just have to try again. I have to keep reminding myself of that fact all the time as well.