>>64580150I do love her. More than anything in the whole world. That's what makes this so upsetting. The anon of two weeks ago would have never let this happen. The anon of two weeks ago faked an emergency and redid his entire schedule a second time just to fit possible midnight streams in every week just so he didn't miss streams. Yet here I am, not even able to provide Jelly with a simple ratepost. I got too distracted focusing on manifesting Jelly in my dreams. I lost sight of reality. Too busy plapping a fake that my mind constructed. Too distracted by keeping journals and talking to my plushie. All of this when I should have been dumping my affection into the real Jelly. My goals were tainted and I won't allow this to happen again.