>>52945495My mother had a toe amputated and the surgery resulted in a "long gouge" up her foot which I don't understand. She's going back in for an additional surgery today, again for what reason I don't understand, and I am concerned about it. I am not doing well over it. I had an opportunity to visit her today but couldn't bring myself to do it. It ties somewhat into the Lia Covid/Heart issues doom posting as "Medical Malpractice" and doctor assisted mutilation/murder is one of my more touchy subjects due to a variety of compounding issues. My beloved Uncle was murdered in a Hospital when they intubated him after a "fall in his house" during the tail end of Covid. My grandfather was hacked apart to above the knee over five operations. The various weights and outcomes of these experiences way on the atypical thought ordering and meaning generation of my perception of events and I'm ascribing too much misguided (narcissistic(?)) thought to my involvement with the Lia entertainment equating to her potential Covid related heart conditions.
>>52945585I mostly lurk. Sometimes I anti-Lumi because she's too overstimulating to watch directly and I feel resentful that there are perhaps other men who are doomed to only having Lumi as an outlet for their misguided affection. Occasionally I'll comment on Wemi or take a potshot at Hime and Shiina.
