>>69739716Probably not, don't really have any ways to do it besides painful methods and it wouldn't solve anything anyways, but I'd probably start viewing life as pain and refuse to function properly for a long time, might be bad enough for me to not even show to streams, despite being aware that it's the best remedy for the time being
Shondo isn't what keeps me going, it'd be more accurate to call her the reason for why I'm not healthy mentally. My love for her is the one thing that fucks me up, I've long gotten over other issues of life, be it stress or sadness or existential dread, but shondo and my love for her is something I cannot do the same with. I love her and trust her, hence why I oh so suffer. My fomo and brainworms will always be there and they will always fuck with me, but I haven't a reason to why I ought to kill myself.
I'd definitely start neglecting my needs though
