>>26331246>>26331260Fine, this is gonna be a long one:
So, I had 2 friends who were boyfriend and girlfriend, and I got really close to them giving his girlfriend a birthday present (cause I didnt wanna be left out).
So I was invited into their small friend group, and played games with them after work. Eventually they found my social media off a joke and friended me and I was "widowed" cause it was funny when I was like 10, so they asked and I made up an entirely fake story about how I had a soul mate and how she died and I wandered the earth as a vagabond and shit, and I mean't to tell them it was a joke but genuinely never did and when I wanted too I was to far in so I kept having to lie and make shit up to keep it up so they wouldn't think I was a terrible person.
The girl and boy were also super menhera, so I was basically their comfort they went too to gossip about people in the group and shit and i'd listen and give solutions. I'd also get them comfort food, gift cards, ect. not to be creepy but just to be a friend cause I hate seeing people sad and shit, which made them both very uncomfortable and created a gap in our friendship even though they never told me to stop.
Anyways, eventually I got mad at one of the dudes in the group who I told a secret and he fucking made a joke about it, and I distanced myself, eventually they called me out for lying and I admitted it and kind of had a mental breakdown cause at the time I was super depressed and shit and they basically kicked me out of the group which furthered my depression and eventually seeing them everyday hurt so much I just quit my job and left and unfriended them all.
Honestly the only thing that kept my from killing myself from this fuck up was the fact that they also kicked out another friend genuinely because "they didnt like her boyfriend" but were too afraid to tell her so they manufactured some bullshit to kick her out, and honestly I feel more regret for hurting them and their feelings then I do for lying to them just because hurting people doesnt feel good at alland thats my rosebud blogpost for the day