>>65891796>I wish I knew what to say. I am terribly bad at responding to stuff like this other than offering simple condolences.Dont worry, flareanon, i dont really expect people to say anything helpful to it. Im not really mad about it or anything at this point. Things just happened and theres no changing the past. Honestly, im not even mad at my parents for neglecting me anymore (i really cant stay mad at people for long there are better waystl to spend your energy). I just cant see them as family.
CPS were indeed pretty incompetent seeing how they knew our "mother" let me and my brother (im not in contact with him anymore as he left as soon as we was able to work and i dont blame him) live in dirt and trash. Maybe im also to blame to being a stupid kid and only assuming they wanted to harm me like i assumed everyone was as people always treated me badly due to these living situation. Took me years after i wasnt a kid anymore to realize how bad my parents actually were, but how is a kid that didnt know any better supposed to know any better if its all they knew about family?
Either way, despite all that and getting my trust betrayed by "friends" or many people in general i still never gave up trying to see the good in people so overall despite the mental issues im trying my best im probably able to cope well with. I was isolated most of my life, but in a way that helped me get to know myself and be clear about myself and help me put my feelings into words and made me understand my mental health pretty well. I still have bad depressive episodes despite knowing better, but constant stress messes with your ability to think logically at times.
Again, sorry for the blog, i dont like doing that as i always feel every more word i say is bothering people more and i know this is an irrational way of thinking and yet i cant stop. As mentioned before i need to move and find a therapist to deal with the anxiety and depression related issues.
>>65889698Im fine for the most part, the thing thats been stressing me out since october really does seem like its finally fixed so thats a huge relief. As for what the issue was, it was one of my cats being sick and the vets werent able to find out whats wrong with it. He was constantly throwing up for seemingly no reason and if you have to constantly clean up behind a cat that does take a toll on you additionally to beong worried about his health, especially when i barely had the energy to get out of bed, but it seems finally fixed. The problem was likely a combination of a sudden food intolerance to his old wet and dryfood and stress.
One of my cats had a similar issue back in 2021, and god it fucking drained me. In his case it was that he lost weight due to seemingly not eating due to being stressed, ran blood tests and all that buy they found nothing wrong with him. I had to literally force feed him so he doesnt starve himself to death, but he made it and fully recovered. He actually became a glutton now and constantly tries to steal food.
But yeah generally, while my depression still is bad im doing my best to keep going and this problem being seemingly fixed is a huge relief. I just need to find a new apartment where I can actually find rest and find a therapist and get some anxiety meds and things should look up. Again, sorry for this blog if it bothers anyone.
