>>17166174I actually had a nightmare that I joined Hololive once. Honestly, it felt no different from a dream where you're put on stage in front of thousands of people but you're in your underwear.
>chat kept expecting me to do something funny or cute>was too nervous to think of anything, and just played along with whatever chat wanted>kept tripping on my words and stuttering>eventually chat started asking "are you okay?">try to laugh it off, come across as even more autistic >after stream, check /vt/ to see what people thought of me>everyone talks shit about me and calls out my autism>people either say that I'm completely incompetent, or just faking nervousness to act like "I'm shy guys xD">even my gen mates realize that I'm a failure, and dodge any discussions about me>realize I have to stream the next day, and the next day, and the nextAfter I woke up, I never thought about what it would be like to be a vtuber ever again. Say what you will about the "worst" vtubers, at least they have the confidence to say dumb shit every day and mean it.