>>54112134I had a good thing going with a group of people I was basically sorta mentoring. It's difficult to explain and if I explain it more it'll give me away.
In a moment of stupidity, I wanted to help someone and in the process revealed quite a few skeletons in my closet because someone looked up the information connected to that name. I deeply resent myself for losing it. Now I can't go back without being publicly ridiculed because I was absolutely fucking retarded at that time in my life and did a lot of degen shit. I don't do it anymore, but the internet rarely cares about repentance.
I miss it every day. I was a source of sunlight in people's lives for once in my burdensome life and now I am back to being a good for nothing burden who only takes and never gives. I hate myself every single day for revealing who I was to help someone. I want that mentoring thing back but I know if I ever show my face again, I'll be endlessly ridiculed for what I've done in my past. Worst fucking mistake I've made in years.