>>60233697No, the soft disclosures of her various dog whistles, I think the most prescient being the earlier Lia from Phase Connect post “I think Lia should get a spooky bgm to go with her new art”, manifesting in stream content makes me feel special and that spins up all the rotten meat in my head to create a million other ego deflecting delusions about the dynamic of parasociality attached to grass roots “guerilla” advertising and the impassable distance of ever knowing true intent/flat out truth of the matter. The allowance of it potentially being Lia directly interacting incognito is the foundational thrill associated with her deep dove small scale Idol allure, but as in all unhealthy addictions the spiraling need for overriding complexity and Pride/shame dynamics overtake the previously satisfactory possibility.
Lia’s return/absence/“””excuses””” continue to be one of her growing chart points, hitting that sweet spot between Airi’s identity defining black company slaving, and Ursula’s ephemeral quality of traditional studious Chinese diversion. The projection of Lia’s various scheduling “faults” being somehow by her own hand lends an extra endearing quality to them that is then boosted to the heavens by the implication of the dysfunction itself being out of her control and then again enhanced by her valiant efforts to overcome it. Lia’s broader narrative crafting ability is my personal favorite aspect of her performance and despite the sinking feeling in my ojisan gut when I miss the significance of one of her gestures the eventual euphoria(unironic) of her redoubled highly broadcasted disclosures bringing me back into the know is worth the discomfort.
