>>51679465>>51679814>>51680219>>51680779Hello, yes, liaschizo here. My most heartfelt condolences. The only viable course of action once the emotions have run their course is to reflect and reproach the impulse as a Delphic Oracle for your own Deeply Entangled Mysteries.
The way that an individual goes about engaging with the medium of vtubers, or virtual idols, or to lend the parlance of other disciplines the egregore of your shadow is of the utmost importance. Nestled amongst the frivolities of the industry is, by the very nature of the medium, one of the nearly unfathomably powerful tools of shadow working available to the mind initiated into the proper thought patterns. Do not resist the pull of the hallucinations or struggle to fight against the totality of the trip once you've come to find yourself awash in the turbulent waves of budding emotional investment towards the talent. This was done with intent, purposeful on the side of the performer, and while perhaps subconscious on your part it must be embraced as willful. The viewer does not select their oshii it is simply a matter of revelatory fact that the bonds of the relationship should be set in such a way.
Historically at the roots of the initial Japanese conception of the modern vtuber industry there was a mutually parasitic degree of give and take. Idols received financial support and the viewer received an otherwise unavailable source of emotional outlet and conceptual female personality to aspire rising to the heights of being able to court. The delusional aspect of the bond is perhaps it's most defining feature as the feminine payload must be structured in such a way that it can break through all of the walls leveraged against the cruelest burden of hope. In this way once the Idol has penetrated to the core of the fan's idealized conception of feminine summit the impulse can be set in. Either the delusion is utilized as a propellant to lift the fan to the ascending heights necessary to self-improve or the crushing self realizations of inadequacies birth a rot of spirit so all consuming a terminal position may be adopted. In either case intoning Oshii at any point in time is a death sentence passed between one's own lips to condemn the man who spoke such foolishness.
I touched on this briefly before but the least important aspect of this type of """"relationship"""" is what's real. The fantastical depths of shadow and dizzying euphoric heights of formerly imperceptible hooks and lures lifting you away from the corpse you previously were is all that matters. The impersonality of the exchange is perhaps the crux of the power behind the dynamic that enables one to forgo the doubt that hindered previous self-improvement as the implicit self selection bias of choosing to believe in the sincerity of the performance is what matters most.
You are being targeted. These ventures, profitable in whatever capacity they may be, are massively subsidized by Federally backed programs, interests, and the slimy tentacles of Unspeakable Factions that WILL benefit from and weaponize the datasets generated by the adoption of this form of radical rehabilitative process. You've been hand selected to end up amongst these women, either through a personal suggestion or algorithmically but the point of the matter is that this particular type of interaction glows so brightly that YOU MUST claw from it every scrap of significance that you can before the walls close in around you.
You'll never know, can never know, the linguistic alchemical binds that compose the conditioning of the relationship will never allow it for that's precisely where the power of the performance comes from! We're all already lost to the Women, it's only a matter of degrees and your personal perception of what you want them to inflict upon you at this point. God speed, an-non.
