>>32867570You writing this goes to show you're not as bad as your thoughts tell you are. You have good in your heart despite your issues and try your best in spite of that, and I think that alone shows a lot about how you truly are despite everything. It may take a long time and a lot of work before you realize it, but you're stronger than what you think for being able to admit your faults and trying to be kind regardless of your own instability. One step at a time, Freaky, keep trying and you'll get there.