>>11679402No matter what streams she does it wont change the fact that Kronii will never fill the hole in your chest. Your apartment will continue to be lonely, be it if Kronii is active or missing. Even if you left, it wouldnt change anything either. If Kronii started her stream now and she did her stupid lame jokes, was wheezing at whatever stupid shit happened or GWAKing at a game, she'd do it regardless if you were there or not. If you or anyone here for that matter, stopped existing mid stream, mid laugh, nothing would change. Your life is insignificant in this case. You will continue to try to desperately cling to normality and meaning by surrounding yourself with some ideal version of yet another flavor of the month girl you profess your love. Again. How many was it now? For a few seconds you might even forget your issues and become absorbed in her charm, but then you will be yoinked back. Back to your miserable existence. Angier than ever that you are only allowed to experience these emotions by watching someone you idolize behind a screen, like some animal locked in a cage. Never able to touch. Never able to meaningfully connect or interact. Just using her as a form of white noise to mask the pain and emptiness. Always just watching, wallowing in your despair of having no importance or meaningful input in a life of that person, never being anything for her, while you allowed her to become everything for you. And when shes not here, when the noise is gone, you are forced to sit here and realize just how empty all of this is. How long will this cycle continue for?