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had a dream last night I was at a mori concert. was a small underground affair that was also held in a movie theater for some reason. after the gig we were waiting for a screening of something and she came and sat in the row in front of me. I congratulated her on the gig going well and we started making small talk and she asked me how long ive been a fan and stuff and eventually I worked up the nerve to tell her the crazy amount she means to me and how much shes inspired me since I discovered her. But when I started with the heartfelt stuff no noise was coming out my mouth even though I was trying my hardest to keep speaking and she was just looking at me with a worried expression and saying "are you ok my dude?" Physically could not get the words out. Tried like 3 more times and eventually I just woke up without success
Even in my dreams she is a shining idol who is out of reach. I'm so fucking down bad its actually insane. I'm not delusional enough to think theres any reality where a fan has a shot with her but for some reason the fact im unable to let her know what an amazing person she is and how brilliant she is and that she should have absolute confidence in herself no matter what happens is frustrating me for some reason.
Love me mori maybe a bit too much.