>>45501111I had an online persona for a group of mentally ill people on this board. Stupidly, I tried to extend my hand out to help one of them in specific. That person is a good person, and the consequences not their fault, but as a result, people unearthed things I'm not proud of. Shined a light on a person whom I am not proud to have been.
I left that community in disgrace and never publicly made a big deal over it. Truly though, I resent my decision to offer than hand to help every day. I struggle with a long of things and that was a beacon of light in my life. Now it's lost to me forever. I know if I ever go back to that community, I will be mocked relentlessly and it will never be the pure, soft experience it once was. Even if people forgave me, that persona I had will never have the respect it used to have.
I never realized how much I missed it until I lost it. My life has been a lot bleaker having lost the ability to use that persona as a method to help those in need.