>>65629367It's why I can't look Lia in the face. Lia lost a few Likers this year. Don't be another one that has to leave or get banned.
But yeah, even though I can't be around any more, I hope someone on Lia's clipper list can preserve these clips for eternity.
I don't want to discuss the drama other than the reply below, I don't want to open up painful wounds on anyone's side. I lost everything I enjoyed because I lost my mind over inane bullshit. I'm fearful of what happens next.
>>65629688I don't really want to make this thread about the drama but that never happened and I'm disgusted at that claim. I cleaned the tablet like I clean my computer monitors. This was my first time I handled a display tablet so if I fucked up somewhere with wipes then I just don't know what the fuck happened. The tablet (bought used on eBay by the way) also was not opened for a few months due to a missing parcel which had the cabling and accessories for it as I was unable to put everything in one package. I do acknowledge a lot of my faults. But the tablet was never messed around like that. It was supposed to be a gift to help someone out who genuinely has a great career ahead of them after their studies in my country and instead I fucked it up by emails and letters in the package. I just didn't want to walk on egg shells any more, I just wanted to talk things out and hopefully could have come to something amicable.
When I promise someone something, I keep to my promises (this is ultimately what caused my downfall). That's why I still wanted to give her the tablet even if things went sour, I just wanted to give something to someone I knew would use it to their advantage. The only reason I asked for the tablet back was because the streamer called me out on stream when she asked for a replacement tablet on throne, I felt that was uncalled for. Either way I know I'm not getting the tablet at my door step any more.
Instead I'll probably get cops ready to put me behind bars and interrogate me over this and end up with a criminal record and restraining order or people to take me to the psych ward for an evaluation or a few days in the hole, I dunno. She doesn't need to worry about me any more, I'll leave her alone for good, just don't talk about me ever again publicly or privately and focus on your own life. Despite concerns, I never was going to physically approach or follow her around as I live in the complete opposite end of the country and I'm sorry she thought I was going to waste so much of my money to do such a thing because a meetup would have never happened unless both sides were comfortable with the idea of doing so. The door to such a thing was closed after I pissed them off with my apologies for months on end.
It's my own fault for pissing them off on numerous occasions all because I wanted to help and I handled things absolutely wrong. That's all I do to people. Try to help out instead of looking after myself and my own requirements. I shouldn't have become so warped that I got fixated on one streamer when there were many I could watch and support. I should have just walked away if it was clear I couldn't repair the hurt I caused. I shouldn't have sent that tablet. I should have just sent her merch, said good luck and wish her well for the future.
Regardless the account was pretty burned, so many people hate me now including chuubas I did hydrate redeems on twitch for and people who have hated me for years have been having a great time shit talking me and bringing up old shit from years ago that isn't even relevant to this day. I tried an alt account but I stupidly rejoined a bunch of Discord servers and people joined the dots. So yeah I dunno if I'll ever be able to come back.I hope I can find something new in 2024 if I can just figure my shit out and get rid of these demons I've had for a long time in my existence. But I don't know what my future is going to be....if I even have much of a future now. I don't want to wake up in a padded room one day, or worse.
All that's left to say is I wish everyone well for the future. Not just the people here, or the fan discord, or the clip watchers, but everyone I interacted as a vtuber fan whether you were a streamer or a viewer. I just wish I did so many things different. But nobody really wants to listen to what I have to say so the best thing to do is just post the archive and walk away. Maybe other shunned viewers like Flakes have a better chance of coming back than I do. Like I said, I don't know if Lia reads this thread, but I hope you do well too. Keep on being Lia. Because I do want Phase to become the top 3 corpo around. And to do that, needs people like Lia and the many other girls in Phase. I just wish I could have done another meet and greet in the future but that door is closed to me now...
Goodbye, /lia/. Thank you for making Lia's dreams come true.
