>>62817246I think once I stopped caring about the parasocial aspect, I crossed the line. At this point, the girls are largely present in most parts of my day via streams I just keep on in the background. If i have a bad day, I donate to one of them so I can feel a little better about making someone else happy (at least, seemingly on the surface). There was this time where my girlfriend (who doesn't work while I work OT) got pissed at me for being ... tired. So I donated to Pippa and Hime in retaliation. I think I just wish that i had friends who were cute deep down. I don't even feel a "need" for these girls. I don't get caught up in that roommate or PL drama nonsense, nor do I care that other people can whale and make better memes than I can. I think that I just want friends and to feel connected to people who might be interested in talking to me about things i'm interested. even if its an illusion. Falling into the parasocial dimension makes me realize that loneliness is powerful.