>>59085462>I can't imagine fighting games necessarily being a great communityThey aren't. Even within the FGC they know it's a pretty big shitshow. One vid I saw recently, talking about the learning process in fighting games specifically, points out how there's that wall players hit, to break through from smalltown/highschool basketball, to NBA tier, and most people "just go touch grass."
It's funny to think being a modern hermit, albeit kind of involuntarily on my part, counts as "touching grass" but that's how shitty the combination of community and gameplay loop is, if you're not super into it.
>On the downside, everything feels empty and dull to the point where I'm too lazy to boot up any of the hundreds of games I have on Steam or even start a new anime while I watch the days pass by. I've been having a pretty bad week, half because of the way discourse on this topic just seems to be getting more pervasive, so it's harder for me to just deal with and move on to accepting my situation. And the other half is because I was food poisoned, with bloody vom/shit and have had enough bloodwork done on me that the latest test might have been misread as me being anemic.
But even then, haven't been doing well. Keep putting off doing shit like working on my models, but I'm also getting tired of moping enough that I want to figure out whatever it is I need to, and just get back to living.
If you're struggling to go through your backlog, and have as much cash as you do, I'd rec getting a steam deck. Even before I had it, and the retro handhelds before that, I've admittedly always been gaming a lot, but the Deck is seriously fucking great for getting through your backlog. As long as you're not expecting to play modern shit requiring a GPU better than a 1060, the thing lets you play just about anything, and control it well too. The portability is nice, too, acted as the setup I mentioned in my other post, for example.
>I suppose GFE ASMR is the one drug I come back to as a coping mechanism, and perhaps spending some time traveling across Asia might make things better?I mentioned I stick mostly to just clips specifically because of this kind of reaction, for me at least. Dunno, I'd just rather sit and stew in my negative emotions/feelings, and try to pull myself out, than placate myself with the high grade copium of GFE shit, since I know I'd like it if I ever let myself sink. Not really giving advice, since I'm frankly on the verge of tears at points every few days or so, lately, but I was compelled to at least comment on that.
Shit sucks, we all die, enjoy life and move on, I guess.
