>>59083211>especially with the number of actually socially functioning/successful individuals who nonetheless have awful social lives and stick to GFE instead of a real life relationship.I don't really do GFE, and I stick to clips specifically so I don't get super attached to any of the girls, and I fit into that bunch too, somewhat. I'm currently in a sort of weird limbo on what to do with my life, since the advice of "just get out there" kind of fell flat. I've spent the past eight years or so bettering myself, and trying to make connections, and only really the former has worked IRL. Online I have a decent circle of friends I spend regularly spend time with, and are actual friends with, but IRL everything went nowhere.
I have hobbies, I have pursuits, I'm building skills, and I'm financially secure at least for now. Living at home so despite my low income on paper, the fact I get to keep like 80% of my paychecks as purely disposable income, makes it so I actually have way more than the people I used to go to school with, despite them on paper making over twice as much as me.
I say all of that to try and indicate I'm really not bullshitting when I say I did actually "get out there." I've gone to meetups, I've gone to weekly social gathering things, I've even tried going to bars and outright became a regular at one, and it's just so fucking pointless if you're late 20s early 30s dude in suburbia. With the kind of powerlevel I have there's no way in hell I'd get along with anyone in the city I"m in the burbs to, nor do I want to spend the time and money to commute in to that crime ridden shit hole every week, on the offchance I find someone decent in there. At that point I think it would be a genuinely better investment to just blow the money on lottery tickets I would have spent otherwise, because it's like trying to multiply zero by stuff.
I spent literally like half a year bringing my setup to my fighting game locals, and increasingly making it better and better, people even played on it, I became acquainted with one dude, and people actually liked it. I stopped showing up, a few weeks ago, after getting tired of falling further and further behind everyone in skill, and having to deal with that shit FGC do, that even Joel recognizes, where platinum through master rank players never go easy on anyone, even if I'm just a fucking Silver. And since then no one's even contacted me over my absence, despite having my number and being recognized there. And every single avenue I've tried and have access to is the same. Without a common goal and cooperation, voluntary association is given about as much weight as any other form of entertainment.
I've bonded more with my online friends, showing them the ropes with Monster Hunter, earlier this week, than those guys. And in turn I'm just really fucking dissuaded.
I had setbacks this week keeping me from practicing my instruments, but I'm hoping that going back to this one jam session thing with a bunch of old dudes, will be okay. Cause I don't really have a whole lot else, even after scrounging through
meetup.com for shit. At the very least my shitty bass playing got more response than all the effort I've put in elsewhere
