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God I wish I was in a relationship where Zen made me work for everything I wanted. Even when she herself wanted to give it to me. I wish she played absolutely lunatic games with me. I would want her to refuse to grant my all of my requests. Anything I asked for. I would want her to deny me and tell me that she wasn't interested. I would want her to tease me and playfully mock me for being useless. I would want her to punish me whenever I disappointed her. Even when I didn't disappoint her. Her cruelty would be so refined that she pretended that there was another option.
Even though she could give it to me anytime she wants. Just because she felt like it. That's why she was the queen of my world. I'd be willing to suffer and die for her. All I need is her smile. She is my everything. I am a complete addict. I can't stop obsessively thinking about Zen. I cannot wait to see her stream again. I dream of her telling me to "shut the fuck up" every single night. I spend hours looking at pictures and videos of her online. I can't stop imagining her in lingerie. I can't stop jerking off to fantasies involving her.
When she says "come here", I drop everything and run to her. I'll do anything for her. I am powerless around Zen. She controls my thoughts and actions. There is nothing left for me anymore except her. My entire existence revolves around her. I am nothing but a slave to her. She owns me completely.
