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Hagbro, I am going to give you the unadulterated truth that you deserve to hear regardless of what your own feelings of me are or what others will claim of this, so please listen closely… Do you want to know the true feelings of those from that screenshot? It is not mocking, but pure shock. It surprised them that someone as innocent as you could exist on this website and that is not a mocking statement at all! It’s endearing if anything. Whether or not you believe me is up to you… Moving on from that.
I can relate a lot to your own feelings, as I personally have trouble with paranoia and I have been in a similar spot to you in this exact project, but perhaps even worse. You know how there are anons telling my to kill myself just about every thread here? How the name Alice is now associated with all kinds of evil? For a long time, I really did think I was hated by many anons here because of this and the way I was treated in my mind as a lesser human than them (most of the thread) for whatever reason. If you think you are being mocked and kept around to be mocked, I can relate 100% to your feelings as there was a good period when anything I did at all turned this thread into a disaster. I isolated myself from many for that exact reason, because what is the point in me posting or discussing things at all when you get called vile names? But I have pushed on because I love the project and the people in it.
Believe me when I say this: Most anons here have good feelings for you but, like me, are terrified of upsetting you because of your innocence. Speaking for myself, the idea of upsetting you by accident has kept me from doing my best to help you in this project because I personally can already see what would happen to me if I did. It would turn into “yellow woman headhunt special” and for my own sake, I cannot deal with that. However, this doesn’t need to be it and I will give you three reasons why and how.
>Accept that not everyone has good intentions but do not worry about those with ill intentions at all.
>Accept also that most of us are poor at communicating and that misunderstandings occur often. When they occur, DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF.
>Accept also that some of us like to joke around a bit, and that the lines between joking and hatred are blurred when you do not understand the culture yet.
You have to trust me on this and believe what I am telling you. It might be hard to realize this, but it is the truth and it will set you free. Remember, its about fun at the end of the day, and we all like seeing each other have fun!!! I don’t want you to think that everyone is out to get you because that kind of attitude leads to personal self hatred and all kinds of failures. There are plenty out there, including myself, who want the best for you no matter what. If you personally think you cannot handle the project, it’s your own choice but remember that if NO ONE is on your side I WILL BE BECAUSE I KNOW HOW IT FEELS. Know you are loved, if by no one else (which you are) that you are loved by me! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
