>>21359097You genuinely sound like you have had a very bad experience with women and I'm sorry to hear that happened to you. You deserve to have happiness like everyone else and I hope you find it one day, anon. Try not to think about women and focus on the things you like and the things that make you happy. If you still wish to find someone, look in a place where your interests lie, and someone will come along. Your will to make it happen is stronger than you think, good luck.