>>36378842>How can you expect others to love you if you don't even love yourself?I don't, which is why I indulge in ASMR and vtubers, because nobody IRL will fucking love me not even myself and I've been emotionally starved and stunted for my entire life and this is something that temporarily fills the gaping void in my chest for a few god damn hours a day. Yeah, the fact that I don't love myself works in a self-destructive spiral that makes it impossible for other people to love me. Yeah, it's fake intimacy, so fucking what. REAL intimacy doesn't exist in my life and never has. I'll take the fake intimacy over the other choice, which is FUCKING NOTHING AND THEN YOU DIE.
I AM WATCHING THE PRETTY COLORFUL GIRL WHISPER SWEET NOTHINGS AND YOU CAN'T FUCKING STOP ME