>>18251094I will never hear a girl sincerely she loves me. I came to terms with that fact.
I was born to be despised since the moment I was born, To be spit on. My genetics, my socio-economic status at birth and bad luck made sure of that.
Is her love fake? Who cares. This lie is a poor replacement for the truth, but it is better than nothing. Is this escapism? Maybe, but does a prisoner have to think only of the bars of his prison cell.
So, I walk into GFE like a thief in a dragon hoard, taking with me precious treasures my eyes were never meant to see. Hearing words directed towards me that my eyes were never meant to hear. This of course angers some, those who think I don't deserve any type of love, even if it's only fake one that isn't even for me alone. And they will hate me for being happy with it, and they will spit on me, like they always done.
When the illusion breaks my heart will break too, but it will only be a return to my usual loneliness, to my usual despair of contemplating suicide every day.
But those memories I will keep with me, and they can never take them away, as much as they want for my life to be forever as bleak as theirs.