I did some thinking and I'm done for now. It's been a great 2.5 years but things have been clearly downhill for a long time. The golden days have passed. Promises to improve have been broken. I may come back if she really does return to streaming after holofes, but for now it seems she's more focused on being an idol than a streamer and that's not what I'm really interested in. For the sake of my mental health I need to leave. I know I'm nobody and I don't matter but I needed to get it off my chest somewhere.
For the rest of you I hope it gets better. I respect those who still stay despite the absences and those who prefer her singing and dancing, living out her dream.