>>34825196I don't know, but I'm in much the same spot.
Nothing I've ever done in my adult life has stuck with me like this. Everything else, every other hobby I've ever had, I became hyperfixated on it for 3 to 6 months and then dropped it like a rock. But not Gura. It's been two years, and it's only getting stronger, I love her with every fiber of my being and I'm no no longer able to pretend I don't.