>>20176196If Haachama is your primary reason for living you need to find a way to improve your life and find happiness from within. Haachama is a wonderful bright spot in my life and I'll miss her dearly when she's gone, but I know I'll be fine without her and her without us one day. It's not fair to Haachama to put that kind of pressure on her either. I'm pretty sure Marine said something similar. Love should add to your life, not be a crutch for survival. This goes for real life too, you need to love yourself and be a whole person before others can love you. I've been an emotional crutch for someone else in a relationship before, it's an awful thing to do to someone.