Quoted By:
"In my restless streams,
I see that place.
Hell.
You promised me you'd take me and the rest of the buds there someday.
But you never did.
Well, I'm alone here now...
In this 'normal place'...
Waiting for you...
Waiting for you to
come back to stream.
But you never do.
And so I wait, wrapped in my
cocoon of pain and loneliness.
I know I must have done a terrible
thing to you. Something you'll
never forgive me for.
I wish I would haven't done
that, but I can't.
I feel so pathetic and ugly
laying here, waiting for you...
Every day I stare up at the cracks
in the ceiling and all I can think
about is how unfair it all is...
A pomudachi came today.
He told me I should go
wait in the waiting room.
It’s not that I'm getting better.
It’s just that this may be
my last chance...
I think you know what I mean...
Even so, I'm glad you are enjoying your vacations.
I've missed you terribly.
But I'm afraid, Rosemi-sama.
I'm afraid you don't really
want to come home.
Whenever you come stream please,
I can tell how hard it is on you...
I don't know if you
hate me or pity me...
Or maybe I just disgust you...
I'm sorry about that.
When I first learned that
you were not going to stream for a while, I just
didn't want to accept it.
I was so angry and horny all the time and I
struck out at everyone I loved most.
Especially you, Rosemi-sama.
That's why I understand
if you do hate me.
But I want you to
know this, Rosemi-sama.
I'll always love you.
Even though my life as your fan had
to end like this, I still wouldn't
trade it for the world. We had
a wonderful year together.
Well, this letter has gone on
too long, so I'll say goodbye.
I told the Famelira to give
this to you after I'm gone.
That means that as you read
this, I'm already insane.
I can't tell you to remember me,
but I can't bear for you to
forget me.
These last few days since I
became ill... I'm so sorry for
what I did to you, did to us...
You've given me so much and
I haven't been able to return
a single thing.
That's why I want you to live
for yourself now.
Do what's best for you, Rosemi-sama.
Rosemi-sama...
You made me happy."