>>72644335Sorry, I fell asleep.
The main takeaway is that Marine has zero self-esteem and self-worth and has crippling Imposter Syndrome.
Let's start with the self-esteem. Marine believes 100% that she is not attractive enough or good enough of a person to get a partner. That nobody would want to marry her despite statements otherwise. She thinks they're joking, basically.
Next, the self-worth. Marine, especially when she's depressed, often views herself as not good enough or worthless and that people don't really like her (that shes a failure). There's very much a sense she gets of "letting people down."
The Imposter Syndrome stuff is self-explanatory. Marine has a pretty severe case of it though.
Let's talk about Marine's view on a partner. Marine wants first someone who understands her and loves her, that is all she needs. She just wants someone to listen and be on her side. Marine’s ideal partner knows exactly what she wants. No need for her to think anything and never to go against what she wants. On the flip side, Marine is very much a people pleaser and a lot of her motivation is "doing right by her fans", to fill the hole she feels of "failure"
I think the key to writing a Yandere Marine would be to hone in on feelings of possessiveness. She has finally found her man and she will NOT let him go. Feelings of comparison should be a focus as well. "I'm not good enough" should warp outwards into "removing those who are better than me" Marine is the type of person who carries her burdens until she explodes.
Finally, some quotes from her I pocketed. Interpret them as you will.
"I want to cherish all of you who are following me, your messed up and useless captain."
"So when I was reading letters saying that I am hardworking I felt like I didn't deserve and I started feeling bad"
“I won't confess. Because I will feel sad if I get dumped. I’ve never confessed to anyone."
“I don't really care that much for height, weight, and age. I care more about how devoted to me you can be.”
“I want you to be able to understand what I want even if I am not saying anything to you, I no longer want to think anything”
