>>38001175I don't know any mainstream fucked up BL because it's all fluffshit nowadays so I gave up looking but one I remember that triggered my guro and emetophilia fetish is a Gamerz Heaven doujinshi by Maki Murakami. It was this blond guy being gangbanged and suddenly one of the guys turned into this grotesque tentacle monster and raped him. It was so deep inside him he threw up. Not all that fucked up but it was one of my favorite. Another one of my favorites from back then is a doujin I can't remember the name of but by the same artist. A priest has sex with a smug vampire, shoots his head off, then continues fucking him because he's still turned on from fucking the headless corpse. His head comes back mid-sex. I wish there were more fucked up mainstream yaoi but all the good stuff is in the doujinshi.
I better not see anyone calling me weird for this when there's a request for seeing a pregnant Enna get punched in the stomach.