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I'm out. First year was amazing and I'll always cherish those memories. Second was good but not as good as the beginning. Last 10 or so months I've just not been enjoying you much at all. I've been trying to force myself to enjoy you for so long now that I must've mindbroken myself into thinking things are great again. I've realized I've not truly, unequivocally enjoyed one of your streams in almost a year. I always either click off the stream an hour or so in, go do something else with the stream playing in the background or just skip streams entirely.
I have not forgotten how often you used to cancel streams or ""banter"" (insult) your chat when they tried to help you, such as with audio. I still remember you telling us to take our 5 bucks and get ourselves something nice if you don't like how often you used to "potato". It was a good idea to finally show your true feelings about your fans and break the illusion I've been stuck in.
I cannot continue trying to force myself to stay with all of the recent events that have happened. I see the changes in your behavior before and after the Marshmallow stream. You couldn't make it any more obvious that you know you fucked up and want to win back some of the ones who've either left or are still on the edge. Liking posts, making more members posts, more streams, more tweets will not make up for your past and current actions and words.
I just don't like watching you anymore. I can't pretend to care anymore when you go on and on about such mundane, boring shit like fishtanks and what new form of life has appeared or how your waters PH is off or some shit. You're boring and always have been but I only looked past it because I forced myself to, because "cute blonde anime girl" was on the screen. You aren't creative because you commission people to make things for you on Twitter.
As you said yourself, "don't like it? don't watch it". It's been a long time coming but I finally feel free and can stop getting so needlessly upset about what a loser pretending to be an anime girl says or does. It really is time to improve myself. So much fucking time wasted.