>>74888949Every morning I wake up, every night I go to sleep, cursing myself.
I curse myself, I curse my choices, I curse the consequences of my own decisions.
I long for the power, for the ability, to change the post.
I could change the present, but I am too afraid. I am too non confrontational.
I can only dream about changing the past or the future.
I made the bed I am lying in. I know I can't blame any higher power for this. Since I can't blame them, I can't pray for them for the power to change my situation and myself. I can't be the change I want to see, and I can't ask someone else to do so.
I am alone with my own choices.
