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I don't want to give up, but I just can't fucking do it anymore. I don't want to let go of the optimism or finally stop believing that maybe, just maybe, things can return to what they once were, but when I spend literally all day being so anxious and depressed that nothing I do makes me feel happy anymore before usually crying myself to sleep, then I seriously need to consider making a change.
But I just don't know what to do. I still care about her so fucking much. She's one of the last few things in this sewer called life that can still give me that sense of pure joy, and it's devastating thinking of letting that go when there's still a chance that it could come back, no matter how small. Both roads seem so painful at this point goddammit. I just don't fucking know what to do.
