>>31390942a little blogpost but also something that i feel like leader feels:
being in an asian family where it's ruthless with parents normally deprive their children of freedom and love, i lived my entirety of my life raising my younger sister as a child and my family doted and preferred my younger sister no matter how many accolades and achievements i got, my sister's mediocre results were hanged on the wall but mines were sitting dust or even torn apart due to the "you're the eldest aren't you? it's nothing to brag about" i had to raise a child (my parents are busy working) while having deal with school i resented being the eldest or any form that puts me in the position of being relied on so i act childish because i was never given the enough time to be one myselfit's why i just resonate with leader in a way? he's clearly great at everything and is capable of many things but from the helicoptering that his mom does and criticizing him on stream just resonates with me
