>>667850271 kinda-gf when i was like 12 or somethin like that, so it was a bit closer to "childhood tomboy friend" than "GF"
we (eventually) kissed, but never fugged (still havent strayed from my path of the shadow wizard money gang)
looking back at it with todays slang,
12 year old me was a cuck
she was in an abusive relationship (with seggs) with a drughead for like 4 years
all 3 of us still preteen at the time btw i was partially in the ghetto so this kind of stuff was... not unusual of a thing
i still remember 8 preteens got pregnant in my 8th grade class, and i still chuckle about a story of one of my female classmates bitching about how her BF snuck some viagra away from his dad, and how she got bored to hell while he was going at it with her because he was taking too long to cum after 30 minutes of fugg and it was becoming painful
me being slightly autistic as a kid (maybe due to a small childhood injury to the neck, im still not sure if it fucked my brain up just a tiny bit or i was born part tism) was the shoulder to cry on about him, and her shithead parents
convinced her to break up with the asshole eventually
she moved like across the country eventually in HS (still good friends, tomboy homie, was a good shoulder to talk to about how i might be bi and had a crush on one of my teachers... me still partially deluded that she would eventually come back and 'save' me and that husband/wife status was still possible)
like, last year of HS, low and behold, bitch got preggo oregano and had a kid
bit the bullet, swallowed my childhood fee fees and congratulated her about it, chatted for a bit, she sounded happy with her life and the kid, which i was glad for, but also severely 'it should have been me damnit'
and then (still autistic me) decided to slowly cut her out of my life, ignore a phone call here and there, eventually start ignore texts, yadda yadda
which i still think was a good decision because we are literal states away so...
thank you for coming to my therapy vent session, there is complementary punch in the lounge