>>27330195Hololive gave me reasons to spend money beyond subsistence, like taking absurd trips, supporting my oshi, going to events and meeting other fans/holos themselves, which has also made me a more social person in general, which means I'm being forced to strive for better opportunities and attaining them to support a better lifestyle, and I don't know how to reconcile the fact that this weeaboo hobby of mine accidentally shot my ass back into a normal life path