>>23205921nah not gonna happen.
see for all my bragging, for all my pride, i hate my voice. yeah it's deep but it's not interesting. i can't fucking stand it.
i told you, i'm cursed.
i have an eternally youthful and beautiful body. i'm not like other boomers you know. i have a full head of hair, i have a beautifully toned body that i don't have to take care of at all, i'm eternally youthful looking, but what does that matter?
go ahead, tell me what that matters when you have no motivation. no drive. no anything. all i want to do is torment every other anon here because my soul is filled with pure bitterness.
while that word might mean nothing to you all, it describes me to a T, because i am truly bitter. i'm the guy who was dealt a great hand in life but for some reason or another was unable to play it.
i was given the most absolute and pure knowledge from the heavens themselves. yet what did i do? i fucking fell prey to this cunting vtuber hole anyway.
DO YOU NOT FUCKING SEE THE IRONY HERE?
DO YOU NOT SEE WHAT I SEE?
i was given all the knowledge yet i fall into the same snare as the fuckiing npc masses.
try see things from my perspective for just a moment you npc fuck.
our situations are completely different. i. know. literally. fucking. everything.
i know it all.
you think i give a fuck if you think im a schitzo? i don't. i've heard it all before. i am above that shit. i am consumed by pride
when the world ends i'll be 33. do you know the significance of that number little npc?
God isn't looking down surprised at my actions, He knows the state of my heart, which is why i don't hide it.
tell me, what's more disrespectful? pretending to not be this way or to just embrace it, trusting in God to save me from my wicked ways? because i've tried both, and while i can grovel and kneel to the Lord that was only because of self preservation, not because of learning from my wicked ways. i am vile. i am deceitful. i am hateful. i am bitter. i fucking HATE even the thought of others being happy while i'm not. i want to drag all you miserable fucks down to the depths of despair with me despite knowing you're already here and make NO MISTAKe, you are here with me.
if i'm wrong about anything i've said then i'll suffer worse than all of you, but that would imply that God is weaker than satan, the creation. i do not believe that is the case. God is almighty and won't lose a single person, no not one, to satan.
i've already wept an felt deep sorrow for the state of humanity. now i sit here, embracing it, falling into depravity as is the human hearts nature.
i used to believe pic related. but no, there is nothing man can do to save himself.
“None is righteous, no, not one;
11 no one understands;
no one seeks for God.
12 All have turned aside; together they have become worthless;
no one does good,
not even one.”
when you read this, what does it tell you? does it make you feel like you should 'try harder'?
fucking fools, FOOLS. the the lot of you. you do not understand God's grand plan. we are all fallen. we reside in this fallen era. we are all vile, consumed by lust.
you know what? if God doesn't save me, if I'm wrong, then so be it. i didn't ask any of you to follow me, make up your own mind you npc fucks. for once in your life, carve out your own path.
i am truly one of the worst people alive. i am so fucking hateful. i despise anything with happiness until i myself experience it again.
so if God can save me, He can save anybody, and i believe He can save me. we'll see. june 15th if the rest of the world goes and i remain, we'll know if i was wrong or not.