>>23689793When you're this far in the rabbithole you have two options: one is to find a weirdo 2view vtuber and slide into her dm's. This is the best case scenario, because if you actually become friends with her and hit it off you can be your odd little self around her.
Option number 2, which you totally fucked up, is to hide your niche interest from any regular girl. Even a lot of weeb-y people are weirded out by vtubers still. That will change but you have to realize this is still really underground shit, especially when it comes to the general public.