>>61664748That's the hard part but also part of knowing oneself, we all face some form of traumatic ordeal in our lives. It's getting into the state of self-reflection required to separate from how that's influenced us and our deeper, more innate aspects that can be such a difficult puzzle. I'm sure that Filian being in front of so many people with relatable issues around this is one of the reasons why so many are magnetically drawn to her. Her own extroverted drive for companionship and admiration is at odds with her own extreme desire to not let anyone cause her emotional pain or be in any form of undue control or influence over her; so much so that she over-compensates by impulsively pushing people away and putting herself at risk. That's one of the reasons I wish she just dance more, all of that gets pushed aside for her by her focus when she's in that mode and her authentic self really comes to the fore.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gT4sSqaMivM&pp=ygUVd29yYWtscyB0cmF1bWEgNDMyIGh6 