>>19784520i've been skipping gym partly because i'm afraid my left arm might get fucked from my squat position and partly because i no lifed elden ring. beisdes that i keep having intrusive thoughts every day and the coof isolation might've caused some mild attention deficit that makes me feel like a fucking retard. i keep telling myself that i'll get big and strong and enroll in the army just as an excuse to not worry about my present and with the war that's happening right next to my country i'll actually have to enroll.
i have a strained relationship with my mother and grandmother that i live with, there's rarely a day where we don't shout at eachother and i think this already caused some anger issues in me because sometimes i think about hurting my mother. i'm in my early twenties and all the women i've fucked were hookers and i keep coping that i'd be able to get a gf and fuck her but i have no social circles anymore, it'd be a miracle if i ever get to talk to a woman in these conditions.
my only solace is that i've picked up a couple of hobbies due to my oshi and i can potentially make money off of them, i'm eternally grateful that i found her and somehow had the strength to overcome all the gosling feelings i had in the past. i have no one to open up with these kinds of issues to and i'm probably forgetting some other things but these are some of my sins, have a pic of my oshi